Stuck in my mind

Why is he hiding his face behind the book? Is he trying to be invisible? Why doesn't he want to be noticed?

He's so shy and it's cute. You can see his insecurity when he has to talk to people who aren't good friends of his. He's not afraid but for some reason he feels nervous. I feel like a stalker when I keep looking at him but I just can't stop. He's stuck in my mind. He's an interesting person and I would like to know more about him, I want to know what he thinks about. But he's shy and I'm shy... I'm afraid to go to talk to him because I don't want to make him feel uncomfortable or I don't want to tease and annoy him. But if I don't do that, I will never get to know him and one more good person would slip away from my life.

I feel stupid.

He even reminds me of someone else who used to be in the same class with me like 5 years ago. There is probably no sense in my thoughts but they look a bit like the same, their personalities are like the same, at least what I know about them, and they listen to same kind of music. Their haircolour is the same as well..

Why am I writing this all here... I don't know. I feel a bit messed up.




But he has a nice smile and I love to see him laughing.

Now it's over

The feeling is weird. I'm happier than for a long time but at the same time I'm sad because it's over now and it won't happen ever again. I feel so alive right now. Last friday was the day I had been waiting for since I was 7 years old and it really was worth waiting.

It was a perfect day. I'm talking about the prom. It was absolutely just amazing. How much I wish we could do it all again. Every girl was so beautiful and every guy so handsome, it was an important day for all of us and we wanted to make it unforgettable.

In the morning I had to wake up really early and in the evening after the long day I was so tired that I could have just fallen asleep right away. At first in the morning we went to our own school and the first year students sang us some songs they had made for us themselves. After that we went to another school and danced all the dances there. Other students, teachers and some friends and parents were watching there. Everybody was soooo nervous because we just thought that what if we'll fail and make some terrible mistake or what if someone will step on my dress and it will be broken right away. Everything went still well after all that panicing. Then we had some freetime and I went to eat to a restaurant with my partner. It was a little awkward because we both were shy and didn't talk much, but we had a nice time, at least I had. In the evening all the high schools of our city went to the same place to dance again. There was everybody's family and friends watching. It was somehow so embarrassing when my and my partner's parents met and talked a long while about us and the dances and everything. I felt like running away that time but I was brave and stayed there. Then it was time to thank for the great day and go home and remember all the happennings of the day.

I will never forget that Valentine's day! :)

From here you can see more beautiful pics of the dancers ;)

No time

Damn it, it's been so long time since I have properly posted anything. I hadn't even checked my emails for many weeks and there were like 468466124 mails to read - or just to delete. I just don't have enough time these days, I can't do anything I would want. All my energy goes to studying and some things that are happening at home now.

But I'm so excited now!! We will have a prom at school in Valentine's day!! It will be so soon and I can't wait! Our seniors will leave school and we second year students will have that prom because we'll be the new seniors. Every girl will dress up like a princess, we go to hairdressers and do wonderful make ups and we have bought the perfect dresses a long time ago. This is something we have been dreaming of so many years and now it will finally happen. Awwh I have butterflies in my stomach when I just think about it. :3 It will be an awesome day. It's also great that my dance pair is a good guy, not any idiot. :P He's just shy and doesn't talk to me a lot. But at least we don't fight all the time like some people. We just have some difficulties to remember the step in the dances and we don't have much time to practise anymore. But I'm sure it will go well. :)

Just waiting!!

And by the way, happy rose day! :)