The end - or the beginning?

I feel sort of empty. Like every year on the last school day. Again one whole year has passed, the seniors will leave, we'll be one grade upper when we meet up with all the classmates and teachers again. Many things will change and never be like the same. It's unbelievable that we're growing up, and even more unbelievable how incredibly fast. It feels like time just runs and everything happens before you have even had time to notice it.

It's summer again, 10 weeks of freedom. No school, no timetables, no stress of doing everything in time and in a right order. You can decide yourself, be the master of your time. Do whatever you want and whenever you want. That feels good, to be your own lord. But on the other hand, at least I will miss the timetables because when I don't have to do anything I really don't do anything but laze around and eat ice cream. Though I have many things to do this summer so perhaps I won't become as lazy as usually.

The graduation ceremony I attended today at school evoke thoughts and wistful feelings came out. The seniors could hear many speeches of their hard work and that the future is waiting for them, that it is not wrong to make mistakes and start again, it's okay to fail, stand up and learn. When they now left the school, they will never be coming back, it's history now, everything is in front of them. One story ends here, another more exciting one starts. They will be their own leaders, their paths will all go to different ways but hopefully they sometimes meet so that they will keep the contacts they have created with each other and will always be helping each other to go on. Because anywhere they head most importantly they have to move on and not stand still, because then they and their lives will get stuck. Like birds at one point have to fly away from their nest, so does the human too. Then they will build their own nest, and hopefully make it a strong one, and one day new birds will be flying away. It's a circle, that has to be continuing.

Life is a journey, we should make the best of it and enjoy every possible moment. Because life just simply is so short that we can never be too happy or do too much things we love. We should really do the things we most love because at them we're the best and we have the best chances to succeed, and that also makes us happy, which is one of the most important things in life. Sometimes we have to give up something to have something better instead. We shouldn't be sad because of the ends we will meet, we should just look forward and take in the coming things with joy and let the new stories have good beginnings like they deserve.

Congratulations to everybody who has graduated this year! You have done an awesome job and a lot of hard work, you deserved the win you've got now, you can be proud of yourselves! We need to keep the good memories and appreciate everything we've got. We wouldn't be here if some things were different. Next year will be my turn to take a new step in my life and I'm enthusiastically waiting for that. Life goes on, and we have to go with it before it runs away. :)

The best I've got

I found something. It's called by your name. It's something so precious that any amount of money in this world can't buy it. How could I ever deserve anything so beautiful and good?

I say it too seldom, possibly never, but you're the best I've ever got, the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love the way you love me, it feels good. I can forget the rest of the world when I'm with you. I hope you know I'm happy that you exist and belong to my world, to my reality. It's good that you are there.

If you had to leave, it would destroy the world I live in. I don't even want to think about that. I don't know what I would be without you. The world would feel empty, it'd be nothing like the same as it's now. If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't be me. So incredibly much you have changed me, almost made me a new person when compared to the old creature. When I'm restless, you calm me down. When I feel like I'm drowning, you lift me up. You're the one who can make me feel okay when everything is messed up and I want to give up. You make me forget all the pain, you always help me. You could tell me a thousand lies, I would believe all of them. You could hurt me, but I still couldn't leave you. But if you asked and wanted, I would let you go. But even if you asked, I would never forget your name or erase your picture from my mind. You'll always be there, you wanted or not. 

There is a doubt. A doubt whether I deserve you or not. Whether we are meant to be together, whether we belong to each other's lives. Because sometimes love just isn't enough.

 I wonder if you even have any idea how much I love you.