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Letter to Alcohol

Saturday, 22nd March 2014

Dear Alcohol,

There are some things in my mind that bother me, they have bothered a long time actually. They include you. I have never really talked about them and now I think it's the time to tell you about my feelings. It's not very easy for me to tell what I have in my mind and heart but it might not be good to keep everything inside forever. I hope you are understanding. Sometimes my opinions are quite strong and strict, and hopefully you can look at yourself from a different point of view after reading this. 

You have always been in my life in a way or another, almost 18 years. It's a rather long time. During that time I have learned to know you well, I have seen you from a very close distance, I have seen what you can do. But I bet you don't know me, you have no idea who I am and why I am writing to you. That's your way of living; you make yourself famous and give an image of you that shows you're really coold and a good mate. People want to know you because they think that knowing you can make them famous, cool and popular too. But that is just a coulisse, the reality hides behind that. You are crafty, you tempt people but what do you actually give them back after all?

You make people forget when they have trouble, problems and sorrow. As if you gave a shoulder to lean on, but then suddenly you disappear and the leaner falls down. Then he has to find you again but every time it's more difficult. People can forget for a while with your help but afterwards they feel even worse and the problems haven't faded away, they might actually have got worse and more complicated or you can create new problems in addition to the old ones. Do you enjoy it when people desperately want to get to you and you just tease them, look at them contemptuously and laugh because they are so pitiful?

Sometimes you can help people to relax and have fun though. Some people are too clever to get into your trap and they just safely keep you far enough. Then you can't harm them and you might be disappointed. I wish everybody understood to have a good distance to you, but unfortunately some have let you to control their lives. In my opinion people can have fun and party without you as well, you don't need to be invited to all fun. 

You are cold. Selfish. Do you even care for anybody? I don't think so. You make people to a bad condition and they are not able to think clearly. Your presence causes many kind of harm. Physical, mental and social. You harm the body and mind of the one who is too attached to you, people easily fight with each other, they can break places and themselves, they get too addicted and that can lead to anything. Besides violence, suicide, illnesses, criminality, cigarettes and drugs are your good friends. I doubt you have made some kind of deal with HIV and unwanted pregnancies. And what about the people around drinkers and alcoholics? You probably don't understand what they feel like. How could you. If there is an alcoholic in the family, they whole family suffers from that. I know what I'm talking about... Then comes the society and eventually the whole global world that you affect.

So many times you have made me sad. Depressed. Lonely. Frustrated. Tired. Neglected. Misunderstood. Forgotten. To lose my belief of a better tomorrow. I know I will be that in the future too. But I try not to care about you, I will ignore you as much as possible. I won't let you ruin my whole life though you have already started. I want to be happy. I can't get rid of you and I don't actually even want to be completely without you, but you will never be able to control me! I'm stronger than you and you're not allowed to fool me! I blame you of many things and I will never forgive you. I wish I could just forget it all. 

Why did you ever come to my life? Why do you even exist? 

Sincerely, 

      Sof

It didn't last forever

Our relation was sweet and deep. It lasted a long time but not forever. Though I already knew it wouldn't last when we first met and started to spend time together. We laughed and we cried, we went trough not only happy but also difficult times. We enjoyed, I know you did too, but in life everything doesn't go like we would want.

Something started to go badly wrong. You became slow and absent, you didn't work like I would have wished. Sometimes you woke me up in the middle of the night without a reason and some mornings I was late from school just because of you. You lived your own life and I felt that you didn't care about me anymore. Slowly you slipped away from me. I feel sad but I don't blame you, things change and that's life. Things come and go despite how good they had once been or how happy they had us made.

Now I have someone else, but it doesn't mean that I don't think about you anymore. I still remember the years we had together and I will never forget them. I wish we could turn back time and still be happy together but I believe that it's better this way.

You're gone, but I love you. You were, you are, and you will always be my first touch screen phone. Rest in peace. 💕

All the things we lost in the fire

Things we lost to the flames
Things we'll never see again
All that we've amassed
Sits before us, shattered into ash 

"Things We Lost In The Fire"

Flames – they licked the walls
Tenderly they turned to dust all that I adore

A crazy world

Insane. The whole world has gone mad. And why? Because people are stupid, selfish and greedy.
Isn't anything enough?
Of course not. We need more of everything and we have to be better than the others.
Why can't I go and kill the president if I don't like him? I would be a much better one and rule the whole world in a good way, all the problems would be solved soon.

I just don't understand. It's frustrating to see where this world is going to, where the people are leading it to. The world could be a better place, if we wanted. But we don't want because everything that matters is Me Myself and I. Who cares about the people who are suffering somewhere else, none of our business. What we don't see doesn't exist, right?

People, wake up! Alarm clock is ringing!
Sooner or later all the madness will end, in a way or another. We don't know how and when, but it's obvious that this can't continue forever.

Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can't tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start

. They tell me I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
Well that's fine by me

So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost

I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
Hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don't have any plans

 Avicii ~ Wake me up

How I wish that one day the world will be a beautiful and good place again full of loving and caring.