Love is a suicide

You can run, you can hide
But sooner or later
It's gonna cut like a knife
Sooner or later
Nowhere to go
I'm already inside
You know
No one'll love ya like I love ya

I wish I could forget how to love. Or just stop loving the wrong person. It kills me from inside when I know that I can't and I shouldn't and I'm not all

owed to love him and it's just absolutely impossible to love him. But my heart is stupid, it doesn't listen to what the mind says. Even worse is that I can't tell the guy I like him because he's a good friend of mine and I know he doesn't feel the same way as I do. If I told him, it would be just awkward and I really don't want to take the risk of losing him because of that, I simply couldn't stand it. 

Stupid stupid stupid heart. 

Furthermore, many of my friends are getting in relationships, some are even getting married and planning to have babies. And I'm just alone, because I can't get the one want. It also feels bad that I have been sorta ignoring other guys who have been interested in me and I'm afraid I've hurt their feelings. I really wouldn't want to do that, but I can't be together with someone if I love somebody else, can I? 

Frustrating. I just want to forget that stupid love and continue like no feelings ever existed. On the other hand, I do wish he would notice me and we could be something, but if I'm realistic it will never happen. At least it wouldn't work a long time, maybe a month or two, or even a year but what after that?

I used to have about a thousand of his pics on my phone but I deleted them all. I had to, otherwise I would have been staring at them all the time and it wouldn't really helped in this situation. There are just too many things around me that remind me of him, he's always on my mind. He's there even when I sleep, I see dreams of him. The way he talks to me, the way he makes me feel important and special, the way he calls me with cute names, the way he cares about me.. All the messages from him in the middle of the night promising he'll always be there for me. Why does he need to do that, it just makes me love him more. He just can't see.

When did I become this silly? I don't know what to do with myself anymore because I'm just growing really tired of this. All I'm doing is hurting myself. 

Stupid stupid stupid heart.

Homophobia is a serious disease

I just don't understand why some people are afraid of homosexuality and I can't stand people who don't accept people as who they are. We are different and that's exactly what makes us special. Imagine the world as a place where everyone is like the same, thinks like the same and likes the same things. It would be pretty boring, right?

Some arguments against gays are just ridiculous, there's really no sense if you think about it. Some people claim it's not normal to be interested in the same sex but that's not true. Even some animals are known to act like that and human has been like that since ancient times. If something is not common, it doesn't necessarily mean it's unnormal. Besides, who defines normality? Then there are these people who say they want to keep the traditional ways and habits in their country. Why don't these people with these excuses blame immigrants instead, for example? I think they're a greater threat for the culture than homos as the immigrants always bring a part of their own culture with them, like language and religion for instance, which then gets mixed with the country's original culture. And with this I don't mean to be racist, for me foreigners are completely fine and I'm actually really interested in foreign people and their cultures. And then come the arguments I usually only laugh at. Some say if one is gay he/she will affect others and they'll be gay too. And then there will be no babies and humans will eventually die out. If someone is gay it's not a danger for the whole population, right? Furthermore, there already are too many people on earth and many orhapns no one is taking care of. So, gays could solve one more problem. And then, you all dear Christian fellows who don't accept gays: if you truly disapprove gays for religious reasons, I would you suggest you to consider following the Golden Rule. "So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets." (Matthew 7:12) Well that's not only in Christianity, you can find the same rule in probably every religion in some form. In Islam it is "No one of you is a believer until he desires for his brother what he desires for himself", in Buddhism "Hurt not others with that which pains yourself", in Hinduism "This is the sum of duty: do naught to others which if done to thee would cause pain" and so on. What if you were gay and you were treated the way we treat them now? Yea, wouldn't be a life of your dreams.

                                 


It's not an illness to be gay, it is an illness to hate gays for no good reason. Don't judge people you don't actually even know. You may not have any idea what kind of life they're living and after all every person is a different individual. Don't point with your finger if you don't want to be pointed at. One more thing that makes me crazy is the injustice of the world and that we pay more attention on homosexuals and punishing them than doing something to murderers and rapists. Somehow I consider killing someone a much worse crime than being yourself. Don't you?

This is the sum of duty: do naught to others that which if done to thee would cause pain.    - See more at: http://toledofavs.com/2014/01/26/golden-rule-law/#sthash.uEQrsflZ.dpufTHi

Hurt not others with that which pains yourself.

No one of you is a believ

No one of you is a believer until he desires for his brother what he desires for himself. - See more at: http://toledofavs.com/2014/01/26/golden-rule-law/#sthash.uEQrsflZ.dpuf

No one of you is a believer until he desires for his brother what he desires for himself. - See more at: http://toledofavs.com/2014/01/26/golden-rule-law/#sthash.uEQrsflZ.dpuf

No one of you is a believer until he desires for his brother what he desires for himself. - See more at: http://toledofavs.com/2014/01/26/golden-rule-law/#sthash.uEQrsflZ.dpuf

No one of you is a believer until he desires for his brother what he desires for himself. - See more at: http://toledofavs.com/2014/01/26/golden-rule-law/#sthash.uEQrsflZ.dpuf

No one of you is a believer until he desires for his brother what he desires for himself. - See more at: http://toledofavs.com/2014/01/26/golden-rule-law/#sthash.uEQrsflZ.dpuf