The Magical 18??

So, I've officially been an adult for a couple of days now but where is the magical feeling of freedom and everything super awesome? I'm still waiting for that.. Like yea, it's great to be able to decide about my own stuff (in principle but in effect it's still my parents who say the last word as long as I live at home) and I can do things legally and travel and go to concerts and get a driving license and a proper job and everything cool but otherwise 18 is just like all the other ages. 

Most people love their birthdays I guess, you can be the king or the queen for one day and you'll get presenst and everybody's attention. But birthdays aren't really my thing. I've never enjoyed being the one everyone notices and I usually don't have much fun on my birthdays. You're supposed to have fun with your friends and party but I never do. I'm just usually spending a normal day at school and then go home alone and eat ice cream and go to sleep, that's my special day. I guess I'm a very boring person but I can't really have fun by my own and friends have their own stuffs when I would want to be with them. After a couple of weeks my friend's gonna have her birthday and a huge party and everyone's planning a surprise for her. Then I was feeling like what about me? It's my birthday first but they care only about her because she's gonna have the party where everyone is just gonna drink and smoke and be stupid. Maybe they don't want to celebrate my day because I don't throw enormous parties including lots of alcohol, good fun and loud music. I'm just a damn boring me.


But I don't complain this year. So much.. I didn't have fun with my friends and most of them didn't wish me or probably even think about me but I don't care. My real friends did. I'm so lucky I have the few awesome friends I've got. They're the most important thing in my life. And my family, I spent a nice night at home on my birthday, they had made everything cool, we went to sauna and watched a movie together. They really did think about me. And my other relatives like grandparents, uncles and aunts, they called me and texted me all day long starting from 5 am when I was still sleeping. They made me happy with their remembering and heartly wishes. And specially with the big gift they gave, or will give me: they will pay my driving school so I can get a driver's license. That's a really big gift as those schools are rather expensive here.. I'm so glad and thankful that I have some awazing and sincerely caring people around me. :)  <3